When Shawn got his job out here, we had about two months to pack up our Ontario lives and move to the East coast. Not a huge amount of time, but you’d be surprised what people who are motivated can accomplish.
Then, when Shawn was jussst starting to come back from his heart attack, an opportunity presented itself for our oldest daughter, Keisha, to move back to Ontario. She never liked it out here. It was hard on her, which, is totally understandable. I mean, she was out of high school and not yet going to college and there was nowhere for her to meet up with any peers in a non-weird way. So she was lonely. And work in New Brunswick is hard to come by. At least sustainable work. I should know, it took me nearly three years to find my full time, permanent job. I worked a lot of part time, contract positions. But, you do what you gotta do.
And now we find ourselves living and breathing the preparations for the next big move. Ash is going to University in the fall. And it’s overwhelming all the planning that goes into it. And the money….jeez louise.
The money notwithstanding, there is just so damn much to know. And to get ready. She has lists upon lists.
I have to admit, I’ve been waffling so much between being incredibly proud, completely nervous, stressed out. Probably all the things I would have felt more thoroughly with Keisha had it not been such a whirlwind and also in the midst of one of the biggest stress points of my life. Our lives.
Poor Ash. I’m trying to keep most of my more extreme feelings away from her (she is stressed enough).
I’ve never been good with big changes in my life. I like things to stay the way they are. But life doesn’t do that. It just waits until you get comfortable and then it throws big change at you.
I guess I need to spend more time preparing myself for the changes that are inevitable.
How do you handle big changes??