Just this past friday, it’s officially seven months since Shawn’s medical ordeal. At once it feels as if if happened yesterday AND a lifetime ago. We did not do anything big to celebrate (as we made a bit of a fuss at six months) because to us, these days, every day is a blessing. What have I learned in seven months?
Sodium is worse that sugar when it comes to heart health.
I am in bad shape (BUT about to change that with the help of my cousin Chris)
We all jump at the words ‘arm pain’, ‘shortness of breath’ and the like
We all need to just calm down
Life does not need to be as stressful as we have made it in the past
It’s up to us to make changes.
Some of these seem so simple, I know. But in fact, they are some of the hardest changes we have made. Trying to get someone to change the way they handle stress is like telling them that after years of being right handed, they suddenly have to write with their left hand only. It can be done, but it feels…wrong, and your whole body screams to go back to the right hand.
I went through a lot of similar things when I was dealing with mental health issues and working with counselors and psychiatrists. My thought patterns were terrible and I would get into awful funks. Low points, depressions, whatever you wanted to call them. I would have this negative thought pattern that spiraled down until I hit the bottom. Changing those thought patterns was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done and it’s still something I have to work at all the time, but, I’ve made the change. I put in the time and the work. Believe me, it was work.
So has Shawn. He has gone from a pack a day (sometimes more) smoker to a non smoker. He talks more and doesn’t hold as much in as he used to. He actually unplugs when he comes home. He relaxes. I can see when he struggles and it still happens more than either of us would like, but he’s working at it and that’s all anyone can ask.
Now, where was I last week? I know, I was barely here, but that’s because I had a lovely visit from my parents. Mum and Dad came in on Wednesday and stayed until Saturday and I can honestly say it was one of the best visits we’ve had in years. No, I don’t typically have shitty visits with them, but this one in particular was just extra wonderful. We went for a long walk, we talked a lot, they spent time with the kids together and one on one and of course, Dad and Shawn Micheal made biscuits. It’s a mandatory part of their visits. Ever since the kids were little.
I also will be appearing sometime in the next little while as a guest blogger on Will Van Stone’s blog. He will be running some poetry of mine. Stay tuned, I’ll put up the link when it goes live.
Now it’s back to job searching for me, working on the books and washing my hair today, cause damn.
Much love to you all!!