With everything going on with Shawn, there were also some developments recently with my oldest daughter Keisha.
Keisha has not done super well out here since we moved last year. At 19 years old she was out of school and didn’t really have a job where she could meet people her own age. There isn’t really anything in our town for young adults and not much more in Saint John. She was lonely.
Recently we had been discussing options for her. She couldn’t go to college or university last year because you have to be a resident for at least one year to qualify for assistance. She missed having social interactions and her depression got really pronounced. So, we did what we always do in a tough situation: Shawn and I sat down with her and brainstormed.
We decided that it might be good for her to move back to Ontario for a year or more. We arranged that she could go and live with my sister Bridget and her family in Orillia for a while until she finds her feet. We put it off until October or so, so that we had time to save up for a plane ticket.
But, then Shawn had his heart attack and everything changed.
Yesterday, due to some family drama, we were scrambling to help Shawn’s sister and her daughter find a way back home to Ontario by Saturday. I realized that hey, I have two cars. What if Keisha and Liam took them home and then drove back? We then all further realized that if they were going to be in Ontario anyway, now is a good time to seize the moment and let Keisha go.
If we’ve all learned something from this experience with Shawn, it’s that you have to grab the moments life presents you, when it presents them. She is ready. Shawn is mending and will be getting stronger every day. It’s time for her to go and spread her wings.
After a visit with Dad this morning and catching him up on the plans, we came home, packed and they left fifteen minutes ago. Many more tears were shed (just when I thought the well had run dry) and they were off. As much as I’m going to miss her more than words, I know that she has to take this opportunity and run with it. I know she is going to be fine, better than fine, because she has strength beyond her years and she is one of the most amazing people I have the pleasure of calling family.
I love you, Amber, Makayla, Liam and Keisha. Safe travels. Be strong. And Liam, come back home to us safely.
Life is funny. It kicks you in the balls sometimes and sometimes, makes you feel so much love and pride it feels like you will burst. It’s time to turn yet another chapter in our lives and move on to the next adventure.